From Endless Wanting to Embracing the Now: My Transformation After Prison

Years ago, I was walking in one of my favorite places, Tod’s Point, in Old Greenwich, CT.

It was a stunning day, and everything just felt “right.”

I was filled with joy and in a state of pure, unadulterated bliss.

I started to think about what I could do to make it even better and what I could bring with me next time to amplify this state even more.

“Next time, I’ll…”

“Then I can add…”

A flock of birds took off from a tree at that moment, snapping me back to the present.

In trying to amplify my state in some unknown future, I ignored my present state.

Pre-prison, my life was a quest for more.

I was the epitome of the Seinfeld episode when Jerry was upgraded to first class, and the flight attendant asked if he’d like more of anything, and he replied,

“More everything!”

I’d appreciate whatever I was doing at the moment, followed by identifying what’s missing, what could be better, if only I…

My existence was the constant chase of the elusive more.