How I Learned The Hard Way That The Easy Way Isn’t Easy

For far too long, I chose the easy way.

I was too afraid to go for what I truly wanted, so the easy way became my way.

Short-term temporary satisfaction and relief winning out over long-term purpose, meaning, fulfillment, freedom, and peace.

I was so afraid of the future and what MAY happen. I was so afraid of being seen as less than. I was so afraid of not being perfect.

I feared telling my now ex-wife that I could no longer support the lifestyle I had created for us. That, really, our lifestyle was nothing more than a house of cards on a windy day.

I feared telling her, my family, and my friends that I wanted to give up my generous six-figure career to create something. No idea what that something was, but I wanted it, and I wanted it so badly.

Everything was so black and white. All or nothing.

Have a high-paying six-figure career and all the materialism that it provides.

Or

Give it all up and go after my dreams of creating something. A book, a movie, something with cars.

There was no in-between. There was no compromise. One or the other.