True Abundance Comes From Within, Not a Bank Account

Prison taught me that abundance isn’t found in a bank account; it’s in my mindset.

It took me a long time and a wickedly painful experience to fully understand this.

Before prison, I believed whole-heartedly that abundance was my salary, my job title, my cars, my watches, my houses, and my VIP status at some fancy restaurants.

I thought I was abundant. I mean, look at all my stuff!

For someone on the outside looking in, I imagine they would say I was living a life of abundance too.

They didn’t see the monthly juggling act of lying to my ex-wife, figuring out how to pay the 5-figure Amex bill, 3 other credit cards, and the mortgage.

While simultaneously maintaining the façade of luxury because I was too damned scared to let it go. I thought if I let it go, I would lose everything that I believed made me, me.

I couldn’t risk exposing myself as less than.

I was fighting to keep a house of cards standing on a windy day.

Each month was filled with lies, exhaustion, and fear.

How is this abundance?

It isn’t. I was operating out of scarcity.