I was in 2 Prisons.

One Physical. One Mental.

The physical version was Otisville Federal Prison.

My mental prison, my personal hell, was the all-consuming power of Shame. Hurting the one I love, disappointing my family, letting myself down. …

Your soul doesn’t give a sh!t about your job title, car, clothes, watches, or brokerage statement.

But your ego does. It plays a mean little trick on you,

It’s the “When I…Then I…” trap.

When I get that promotion, then I’ll be someone.

When I buy that new car, then…

‘Non est ad astra mollis e terris via’

“There is no easy way from the earth to the stars.”


I love cars.

I have since I was seven years old and a white BMW M1 passed my family’s Subaru GL wagon on Route 35 like we were stuck in…

I was arrested by the FBI eight years ago today.

I used to say (it’s in my TEDx) that October 1st, 2013, was the day my life changed.

And that’s true, and it’s not.

10.1.13 was the day the consequence of my choices was born, and life did change.


I was a personal trainer in my early twenties. I would travel to my client’s homes, either bringing the gym to them or utilizing their home gym.

I made great money and met some incredible individuals.

I loved it.

One of my clients lived on Round Hill Road in Greenwich…

It was a windy day; the rain was gentle yet steady. The first chill of autumn sat heavy in the air.

I stood looking at the damage the storm had done.

Overall, it could have been worse; we actually made out OK.

Although, there was about a foot and a…

I’ve written 18,674,894 words since October 7th, 2016.

This is the equivalent of 360 copies of my book, “Blank Canvas.”

Mind you; this only represents one platform. The other platforms I’ve used don’t show me this info, but I’m guessing they account for another few million.

I don’t share this…

How often do we formulate a complete narrative based on a limited amount of information?

How often do we take a single label and transform it into an entire book in our mind, from beginning to end and all the chapters in between?

How often do we “know” who someone…

Today is an interesting anniversary.

It was 7 years ago today I self surrendered to Otisville Federal Prison.

I invite you to join me on my journey into the unknown with this excerpt from my new book, “Blank Canvas, How I Reinvented My Life After Prison.”


“One is never afraid…

This is an accurate depiction of how I felt after my arrest.

I’m honored to be a member of a White Collar Support Group lead by my dear friend, Jeff Grant.

We meet every Monday, and the topics vary; however, a few issues rise above the rest.

One of those issues is Judgements, particularly as it relates to our family and friends…

Craig Stanland

I specialize in working with people who want to reinvent themselves so they can create the extraordinary lives they’ve always wanted.

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